Scribble: 10:15 AM 3/6/2008 Summer Rain

I'm sitting at my desk in the makeshift work area in the basement of the building. I am completing 6 months here in another four days. That's good enough time to become integral with the organization, and to have enough work to fill all my time if I so choose.

But my mind is elsewhere. The inability to focus on office affairs have been with me since I started my career in the basement of a small private company's office in Baroda twelve years back. I keep drifting away from work unless there is considerable work pressure to keep me pinned on work.

I want to be elsewhere. I had downloaded one photo of Uthralikavu near Vadakkancheri from an online forum, and have been engulfed by a strong sense of longing to be in similar environs. To be somewhere in a Kerala village, when dark rain clouds gather and the strong cool winds announce the onset of summer rains, sweeping dry leaves all around and making more of them wither down from the trees. Dry teak trees against the backdrop of a dark cloudy sky. Giant evergreen trees dancing in anticipation of the rain.

And I soak in the ambience, I am part of it all, with not a worry about the world's affairs. I am healthy, energetic, enthusiastic and happy, and in complete oneness with nature.

Then it rains. Like never before.
I soak in the rain.. that's ultimate deliverance, salvation, nirvana.